1. |
Me Myself And I
03:21
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When I
Was twenty something
My heart was wide open
Really thought that I found the one
But I wasted my time he was not the one
Broken hearted and feeling numb
Me myself and I
When I
Was thirty something
My body was wide open
I gave my body to everyone
I really thought it was having fun
Rambling around and feeling numb
Me myself and I
Remember when all we had was time
The world was open
This exhausting silence
This mental violence
Won’t die
When I
Was eighty something
My heart was wide open
Be my best friend
Be my own friend
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2. |
Inside The Box
03:51
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Take off all your clothes
Look into the mirror
Strip away your skin
Your shell it disappears
Your soul it might be diamonds
Your heart it might be gold
No one knows what’s in there
Cause you’ll never show
What is in there
What’s inside
The box
I know that there’s a treasure hiding
Inside the box
Find yourself in bed
With beautiful people
They will only visit
They will never live here
Sometimes I wish I was more shiny
I bruise behind my face
Tell me what you’re hiding
In your display case
What is in there
What’s inside
The box
Your wrapping paper’s hiding what’s
Inside the box
I know there’s someone in there
Open up the door and let me in
Open up your heart and let me in
Open up the door let yourself in
I know there’s someone in there
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3. |
Ugly Boy
02:24
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I wanna ask you out but I am not pretty
Everybody knows that your friends are pretty
I wanna ask you out but I am not pretty
Everybody knows that your friends are pretty
Flashback to a fashion show
Surrounded by everyone I know
In a corner in a button up
All the things I hate about myself
Rising to the top
Rising to the top
The self hate it won’t stop
Flashback to a drink in your hand
I’m dreaming of a wedding band
Against a wall feeling repulsive
All the things I hate about myself
Coming out to play
Coming out to play
The self hate won’t go away
Don’t think I’m pretty - boys don’t boys don’t
Feeling worn down ‘cause you won’t you won’t
Don’t think I’m pretty girls don’t girls don’t
Feeling ate up ‘cause you won’t you won’t
Feeling chewed up and I’m feeling torn down
I feel real ugly do you wanna get down?
Feeling disposable feeling spit out
I feel real ugly do you wanna go out
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4. |
My Own Freedoms
02:43
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Up in my bedroom
Up on the third floor
Behind a locked door
My face is half frozen
Stress of day to day
When someone loves me
It’ll be okay
While meanwhile in Russia
Zelimkhan are you safe?
While meanwhile in Russia
Zelimkhan are you safe?
Did they hurt you?
I wanna know if they hurt you
My own freedom
My neighbors just got married
Beautiful groom and groom
We’ve come a long way
I thought my family didn’t like me
Turns out they’ve always loved me
The way I am
But meanwhile in Russia
Zelimkhan are you safe?
While meanwhile in Russia
Zelimkhan are you safe?
Did they hurt you?
I wanna know if they hurt you
My own freedom
All this time to figure out who I am…
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5. |
Old Fredonia Days
03:04
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Scott I was so young
I was stupid I was crazy
I know that you didn’t love me
You were straight I know I scared you
No idea why I felt so much
Or why I fell so long
You’ve hated me since ’94
Don’t think I love you anymore
Ryan I know I tortured you
Followed you around town
You’ve forgiven me - it’s cool
Still I am embarrassed
I was gay it was the 90s
Didn't understand my feelings
You’re my first love in high school
And I’m glad that we are cool now
If we met today
If we met today we’d be okay
If we met today
We’d laugh and say
Them good old Fredonia days
I was mixed up growing up
Sometimes I was a bitch
Sometimes spoiled sometimes troubled
Hard to get along with
Probably needed help myself
Needed counseling myself
Chasing Kristian chasing Myles
Adult ruled by inner-child now
Dad I tried to reach you
But you wouldn’t respond
You wouldn’t even take my phone call
The week that you were dying
People accusing me of coming around
After all these years
It’s between me and you
And I know that we are cool now
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6. |
Atlanta
03:58
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Let’s talk about Atlanta
The yellowish lamp shade
The brown couch
The closed door
Sitting staring at the door
Trying to stay calm
Shut my mouth
I can never shut my mouth
Silent but the tick tock tick tock
Watching the clock
Should trust a friend
Never again
In one day your life changed forever
In one day your life changed forever
You’ll never be the same - no no - never
Driving to Atlanta to get myself back
Little boy black got himself killed
His body in the ground
Deep as the bodies
These things I stuff inside
37 down 285
Remember that doorway
Remember that window
Remember those soft lips
Breaking a mirror
In one day your life changed forever
In one day your life changed forever
You’ll never be the same - no no - never
Driving to Atlanta to get myself back
I’m driving to Atlanta to get myself back
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7. |
Closer?
04:02
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Post a picture at your best
Post a picture at your worst
Show the world your neediness and thirst
They’re just pictures and words
Just pictures and words
A thousand characters read not heard
Hashtag #nobodygaveadamn
And I’ll admit these pictures
Don’t make me feel closer
And I’ll admit these pictures
Don’t make me feel closer
Drifting further and further
See your flaws on display
All your need plainly laid
Your life story in every raw detail
And I will like and comment
Like and comment
Say you need help
Sad emoji on it
Nobodygaveadamn.com
And I’ll admit these words they
Don’t make me feel closer
And I’ll admit these words they
Don’t make me feel closer
Drifting further and further
I wish I were closer
I wish I felt closer
I wish we were closer
Drifting further and further
(Today I woke up and I wasn’t
In my twenties anymore
There is nothing left in the scene
There is nothing left on the screen
There’s even nothing left to scream
So I go back to my apartment
And I shut the door
And I go back to bed…)
I am dying
One comment at a time
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8. |
Thousands Against One
02:55
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Carly can’t wait for the band to start
Strip is shining
The desert’s quiet and dark
Ten minutes til the bandit preys
He’s in a hotel
Watching the bands play
And I hear run - go ahead and run
First it sounds like fireworks
But someone’s got a gun
And I hear run
Go ahead and run
Can’t win even thousands against one
Juan and Drew a great romance
The night is shining
The crowd begins to dance
Ten minutes ’til the bandit comes
He’s in the parking lot
Tapping to the drums
And I hear run - go ahead and run
First it sounds like fireworks
But someone’s got a gun
Then I hear run
Go ahead and run
Can’t win even thousands against one
Tired of being strong
I just want to feel safe
Take the toys away
Still you’ve got the hate
I said Orlando strong and Vegas strong
I just want to feel safe
How’d you send your kids to school today?
We sat in a park - all us frightened people
In a circle and we’re holding hands
We held each other all us frightened people
God almighty tell me will it stop?
I can’t throw a punch how could I hold a gun?
Tell me tell me tell me will it stop?
I can’t throw a punch how could I hold a gun?
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9. |
Fort Lonesome
03:28
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Take me on a bathroom floor
I been down here a couple times before
Get a broom - I know I’m trash
Get some medicine I know I’m a rash
You see the problem is
It’s one out of a hundred times
You leave me hanging other ninety nine
Take me in a pitch black room
I keep a secret and I’m leaving soon
Never never never again
Will I ask for it
Never never never again
Will I beg for it
Got what I want
Hope you want it again
Dust off my knees
Pretend that I’m your friend
My self-esteem under years of dust
My self-worth under years of rust
You see the problem is
It’s one out of a hundred times
You leave me hanging other ninety-nine
Meanwhile they’re in love
I’m going crazy out in Fort Lonesome
Never never never again
Will I ask for it
Never never never again
Until tomorrow
Meanwhile you’re in love
I’m going crazy out in fort lonesome
Meanwhile you’re in love
And I’m living in fort lonesome
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10. |
Before The Ashes
04:10
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A picture of you from ’84
You never smile like that anymore
And the deaths add up
And the deaths add up
Who’s counting?
I see you before the clouds came through
Before the world eroded you
Can you do one thing
Can you do one thing
Gonna make you sing
Gonna make you sing
Just smile - like in those pictures
Just smile - like the sun up in the sky
Just smile - forget the shadows
Wanna know who you were before the ashes
I wanna know who you were before the ashes
By ’86 the clouds came in
Add and remove a layer of skin
You’re adult you’re a child
You’re adult you’re a child
We’ve all been both our entire lives
I see you before the flood came through
Before the world screwed up you
Can you do one thing
Can you do one thing
Gonna make you sing
Gonna make you sing
Disappointments add up
And the years they add up
Disappointments add up
One by one by one
Who’s keeping track anymore?
(Dad and Kathy still together somewhere…
Happy child’s still in there somewhere…
All that light still in there somewhere…)
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11. |
Tampa
02:25
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Might not be
The best city in the world
It’s the place that I call home
Might not have the best galleries
Win polls in magazines
If you put down Tampa Florida
You’re my enemy
My friends are here
My favorites roads are here
That crazy little magic in the night
Alright
Laid back like Lou
On a Sunday afternoon
And we’re going on adventures
In the back of Vanna White
Me and cousin Donna
Gonna terrorize the town
If you put down Tampa, Florida
I’m gonna throw down
My friends are here
My favorite roads are here
That crazy little
Something in the night
Alright
Tampa is my home
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12. |
Low Voltage
03:36
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Driving through Alabama again
The sky is like cotton candy
So beautiful
I found a letter I wrote you
Twenty one years ago
Forgot we used to play games
On your bedroom floor
You better grow up boy
You better grow up boy
Cause you’re gone
With you died
The way you made me feel
You’re gone
World with a little less electricity
Low voltage
Learning how to live
‘Cause I’m still alive
Low voltage
Learning how to love
I just drive
Down I-10 a forest fallen
And it’s reaching its claws
At me from beside the road
The lights are out a hundred miles
In and outside my soul
Mile after mile nowhere else to go
I’m destroyed I never let it show
I just get out of bed everyday
Go on day after day
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13. |
Dig Right In
03:02
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Once I thought I knew it all
Then I didn’t know a thing
These days I keep it blank
White noise everything
Once I yearned to travel far
Now I like to be at home
Once I kept many friends
Now I like my time alone
My time alone - time alone
Watching all these legends die
Shrouded in disgrace
Language of my youth
Outdated and erased
Once the world felt so big
I now accept I’m small
Climbing up the tree of life
Til my twig snaps and falls
Snaps and falls - snaps and falls
Keep starting fires y’all
Keep on asking questions
It’s your turn to find your way
Ignore our suggestions
Populate this universe
Even if death will win
Passing on the torch to you
Young one dig right in
Dig right in - dig right in
Dig right in - dig right in
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14. |
Another Side To Love
02:56
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(originally written and recorded on my first
demo tape in 1993)
Come hold me baby
Put your arms around me
Let it take me over
All I wanna do is be wrapped up in you
Let it take me over
There’s another side to love
There’s another side to our love
No tengo miedo de ser romántico
Something happens when I look at you
Begin to lose control
Something else takes hold
And my soul is sold
Oh no it never felt like this
It’s not just passion or masochists
Not just passion
But a different kind of feeling
There’s another side to love
There’s another side to our love
No tengo miedo de ser romántico
There’s another side to love
Rolling over highway love
You are my one and only let me show you how
You are my one and only let me know you how
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15. |
Somewhere In America
03:34
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I am driving down the east coast
With my dad’s guitar
Made a stop in West Virginia
Sleeping in my car
He was a funny man - he was a legend
Still there are no tears
Cousin Kristie down in Charlotte
Remembering dirt roads
Got my step dad’s bow and arrow
A clock we used to own
He was a good man - another legend
Still there are no tears
Not sure who I am anymore
Feeling close to nothing
Whittled down to nothing
Driving south as Tori Amos sings
In a car of dead man’s things
On a highway in America
Somewhere in America
Through a tunnel in the mountains
To the Florida line
Getting close to my apartment
O.C.D. all the time
Numb and sex addicted
I’m feeling just fine
Always a flat line
Final stop in Alabama
Standing by the grave
Of the only one I’d die for
I’m leaving with his tapes
He could’ve changed the world
Still he was a legend
I felt him in that chair
Not sure who I am anymore
Feeling close to nothing
Whittled down to nothing
Driving east as Madonna sings
In a car of dead man’s things
On a highway in America
I’m somewhere in America
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16. |
Tampa (Acoustic Mix)
02:24
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Might not be
The best city in the world
It’s the place that I call home
Might not have the best galleries
Win polls in magazines
If you put down Tampa Florida
You’re my enemy
My friends are here
My favorites roads are here
That crazy little magic in the night
Alright
Laid back like Lou
On a Sunday afternoon
And we’re going on adventures
In the back of Vanna White
Me and cousin Donna
Gonna terrorize the town
If you put down Tampa, Florida
I’m gonna throw down
My friends are here
My favorite roads are here
That crazy little
Something in the night
Alright
Tampa is my home
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17. |
Atlanta (Alternate Mix)
03:57
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Let’s talk about Atlanta
The yellowish lamp shade
The brown couch
The closed door
Sitting staring at the door
Trying to stay calm
Shut my mouth
I can never shut my mouth
Silent but the tick tock tick tock
Watching the clock
Should trust a friend
Never again
In one day your life changed forever
In one day your life changed forever
You’ll never be the same - no no - never
Driving to Atlanta to get myself back
Little boy black got himself killed
His body in the ground
Deep as the bodies
These things I stuff inside
37 down 285
Remember that doorway
Remember that window
Remember those soft lips
Breaking a mirror
In one day your life changed forever
In one day your life changed forever
You’ll never be the same - no no - never
Driving to Atlanta to get myself back
I’m driving to Atlanta to get myself back
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18. |
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Driving through Alabama again
The sky is like cotton candy
So beautiful
I found a letter I wrote you
Twenty one years ago
Forgot we used to play games
On your bedroom floor
You better grow up boy
You better grow up boy
Cause you’re gone
With you died
The way you made me feel
You’re gone
World with a little less electricity
Low voltage
Learning how to live
‘Cause I’m still alive
Low voltage
Learning how to love
I just drive
Down I-10 a forest fallen
And it’s reaching its claws
At me from beside the road
The lights are out a hundred miles
In and outside my soul
Mile after mile nowhere else to go
I’m destroyed I never let it show
I just get out of bed everyday
Go on day after day
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Jeremy Gloff Tampa, Florida
Jeremy Gloff is an independent musician and writer residing in Tampa, Florida. Since his first album in 1993 Gloff has released 23 solo albums with the newest being "Burn It Up! Turn It Up!"
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